a heartwarming person

and in return be warmed up too

we are meant to live for so much more

这首歌的原唱者是王菲。 曲调很古怪，很特别。萧敬腾唱得有多一番味道。 自己觉得他唱的比较好，他的摇滚浑厚的嗓音给歌曾加多了多一个性格。

啊，你正是一个很有看头的歌手 ：）


词里有一句话： “狼狈比失去难受 ”
我一直以为他在唱- 让baby失去（很）难受。 嘿嘿

唱的很感人
ga-ga


可是我也要很客观地讲这首歌的唱法还能更柔，高音一些。
跟ter 谈过：有时听他的歌时能很清楚地听到他很会唱，可是好像感动度尺度没那么足，很打造出来的感觉。还蛮怕真的会这样。

哎呀，你出专辑也出得太快了啦。没钱买。。。 ：<

×××
多一个很棒的一个新歌手是-- 徐佳莹
它是一个创作型的实力歌手。专辑的每一首歌的词和曲都是有她创作。
我看着她在超级新光大道里逐渐的成长，每一周唱的歌也是自己的.我能看得出她对她的梦想的执着， 坚持， 努力。
很仰慕她这种精神。也很羡慕她那么拼，那么地去追求自己已认定，肯定的未来和方向。

她是一个毫不做作的艺人。不太懂得怎样去娱乐广众，做些效果。很真实地呈现真的自己。
看到她在新歌发表会终于达成她梦寐以求的梦想- 把作品谦虚地呈现给大众，她也无意落下了眼泪。
她说怕随着时间的流逝，就会慢慢忘了当时她怎么去奋斗来实现这个梦想。
怕会忘了首次美梦（想）成真的那感动。

读者她专辑写着的感言，自己胸口也涌起一股感动，也是她最想和我们分享的一个感动。
感动在于她的人生乐趣，执着， 要我们了解她的梦想，她的歌。

有没想，执着的人是幸福的。生活个因此有了意义。








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这首歌的诠释狠不一样。男歌手唱女歌手的歌。
原唱是许美静，新加坡人哦




好的，也该回去读书了。

Epi lat tor!

I bought this epilator from Braun for a seemingly hefty sum of $100!

But think of the number of waxing sessions saved! And each session costs around $20.

Now I would be able to have silky legs, that even stockings would not stay put and fall at the caress of the smooth epidermal texture, ridded of obstructions made up of lengthy dead cells filled with melanin <- my imagination.

 

It does not shave, instead it has multiple miniature tweezers that pluck out your hair. Therefore, there is no fear of having hairier legs or thicker hair. But bless my lil pores on my legs. It hurts like #^&$% when the lawnmower passes by plots with more concentrated growth of hair.

 

But one disadvantage, madam/ sir? According to my mother, unlike waxing, the hair pores will be kept open when you epilate. The more you wax, the smaller your hair pores, and according to hearsay, there will be a day where you will cease to grow hair or become hairless!

 

And lastly, it comes in the color pink!

i can't settle down as i know i've long hours of sedentary studying ahead. im dreading it.
i feel like i need to talk. ya, sounds so total loser-ish :S

anyway to safeguard my sanity, i shall look forward to blogging after every study session :)
hmm, that cheers me up.
i can't just study and converse with my mp3 player

u there, have a lovely day/ uh, lovely study session, if applicable!
ugh.

I don't agree with the notion of sacrificial love.

If couples do love each other more than their own lives, why make the other suffer after u have sacrificed yourself?

It reflects a one way communication based on dissonance in expectations.

You expect the other to be better off from your sacrifice, but it proves to be otherwise.

 

boo, I just want a happy ending.

 

From

风之画员

“画， 应该是一种思念。”

- 我想， 当今， 照片也是一种思念吧。

×××

 

我在签唱会见到萧敬腾了。
近距离接触到他让他的存在和歌声少了一些梦幻感。

他在933金曲奖赢了两项大奖。
就是最受欢迎男艺人奖和最受欢迎演艺男歌手奖

他的确有一个很白皙的脸蛋。

行为举止也像在网上见到的他一样。真令人发笑 ：）

可是怎么说呢。。

我不能想象自己成为一个七七四十九天的粉丝。

或许我的自尊心也太强了。

做不出这一种还蛮单方面的追逐。

 

可是我还是很喜欢他和他的音乐。也会鼎力支持他。

听他现场演唱真的很享受。

我要去他的演唱会！

 

加上，我也该更好好的利用我的这些心思和时间了，走出我自己的一条路，建立自己的一片天地。哟。是opportunity cost的体现耶。

 

从他的访问和歌词的文笔，我相信他有一个很细腻的心。

他说：每当工作完后，我都会感到很寂寞。

我想，身为艺人， 虽然有大批的粉丝， 可是时时刻刻都害怕私生活会被媒体曝光。他也只能见娱乐界的朋友，未免牵挂到非娱乐界的朋友的隐私权了。

他也说：爱是一种拥有

嗯嗯。的确。

 
诶，你的照片比我清楚多了！朋友们，从这你能知道我站的位置到底有多远了吧。。嗨呀。可是我还是为他的高人气感到庆幸
哎呀。咬到自己的头了啦。好扯的画面。嘻
要带着微笑！
具有萧大侠风范的一连串pose来了！

你从众人当中选了我？我昏了～




我还是觉得一个人这样摆pose有些些尴尬。嘿

筵凌，上。

saddened.
did not get the internship place at the company i really wanted to intern for.

:{
gambatte nei!

i totally want to check out this new latin dance club in the canary!
latin music is soooo groovy with its upbeat tempo!
ikimasu-sho avec mia apres essame! - that is some jap-french-italiano happening down here, yo

Im either losing my mind in the mad rush to meet assignment deadlines or im seriously getting really ridiculous.
Im laughing my head off at dumbo-stuff. Spare me the flies-gathering ears please.

I officially announce Traditional Chinese Medicine module as my fave mod in this semester.
it is challenging to think, read and write in chinese, and I actually face difficulties multi-tasking when I couple the act of reading the lecture notes/writing notes with listening to what the lecturer is rambling about in her crisp-clear Mandarin- which i enjoy listening to. Have you ever thought of traditional chinese (med) rhymes as some ancient raps? As compared to the modern 50 cents, ancient chinese rap stars could totally name themselves 五铜-子 and add some short bursts of pipa plucking in the background. extreme oriental retro-ness

fyi: do you know why Hello Kitty doesn't have a mouth?
-acc to Sanrio: they do not want to predetermine the emotion of the character. If a mouth was added, it would have been a mouth gathered into a smile, and this would have fixed the emotion of Hello Kitty and ostracized other people who did not feel so in the same way (pathetic sad people who couldn't bear to see a smile. ok im being mean,). Thus, the absence of the mouth allows people to project their emotions on the character, and experience a closer relationship with it.

Branding is my next big love thus far in my 3 years of undergraduate academic life.

with
RESOLUTION &
STRENGTH

i shall kick-ass
TMNT style! *haiiiiii-yaaaaaaah!

time to stop comparing myself with others and their oh-so-glorifying achievements and start doing something myself

each of us is society at its miniature. yes we do represent the certain demographic group we are associated with, bear a specific cookie mould image of the group, but among all the identifiable similarities, we are wired up differently. still, we do belong to certain cliques and social groups and find ourselves naturally, or gradually not belonging to another contrasting clique, all in the name of being in our comfort zone and saving the inconvenience of relating to someone that seems different (judging them before even knowing them. what a tragedy). possibly, that might not be an ideal relationship to invest time and effort in, but interacting with different-minded individuals has proved to be rather fun to the extent of being insightful. the act of comparing myself to others often ends up with why am i like this, and why is (more often) she or he like that? in the end, all this gossipy, green-eyed envy all boils down to how i think, get motivated, behave and act that sets myself away from others, sometimes in a good way, but the majority of times, otherwise, and i just have to pull my socks up. discard the ankle socks-wearing tradition now!

the idea of becoming 21 soon is starting to make me feel the strain of being an adult, to get a direction, a dedication, a goal.
besides having one, here comes the real test: how far am i willing to go in this pursuit?
oh all the coming of age celebration fuss.

*goodbye pamela, grace and shuan and see u all in december!
wouldn't u 3 collaborate together and reach home on the same day in december? so we can all pick u all up in one shot? ;)
have fun in arz, mexico and nyc!
u all are missed!
i miss kahmun too.

The most unexpected and appropriate full stop which summed up my 6months of exchange in Switzerland.

After a rather tearful farewell to abram, yolanda and elisa, I was all emo-ing on the train, accompanied by my 2 humongous luggages. A rather over-the-top friendly train conductor striked a conversation with me, more than once as he went around to do his rountine checks for train tickets everytime the train reached the next stop. The conversation:

(ok written in my traslation from italian to english. he spoke mainly italian with halting english)
He: ciao.. where are u going... where did u come from...
me: zurich airport. singapore. was an exchange student in lugano...

he: well sa-lu-te (means salute, or said when making a toast) singapore! *said enthusiastically
me: grazie mille.... thank you very much.

talked a lil about switz & lugano

he: auguri - which has 2 meanings. 1st meaning- it adds a congratulatory note. 2nd meaning: good luck. eg. for exams
me: *realize how these 2 meanings applied to me at the same time

i congratulated myself on having embarked and completed an enjoyable exchange, alone
and wondering what my future possibly holds, or how the exchange has changed me..

So far, it was the prettiest thing I saw in this entire week! with a little serendipitous magic, I spotted
a stand alone, hearty four-leaf clover was peeping out from a drain hole along the road to ntu but I dare not and would never pluck it out.
I remembered how I was sitting on the grass, mid-way up the Swiss mountain, trying to find a single four-leaf clover among all the clovers, but my search and vision-blurring peering on the clovers were only in vain.

i shall take a picture of it soon.!

I M SICK
IN LONDON
FREAK

i finally bought presents for my parents!
the factory outlet here was not as cheap as those in the states.
so i was superbly stressed out by... shopping. which shouldn't be the case.
for my mum- a wallet from armani (that was the cheapest gift i could find. she wanted a bag and a wallet!)
...note to self: save on my traveling, ask for more $ from my parents to be put in my bank account just in case i end up traveling cashless/ credit-less. slog when i go back to spore
for my dad- a polo ralph lauren light blue polo tee. it is such a classic chic piece that would make any man look suave. provided that he has a good bod. saw sb wearing it while i was intending to buy it. he had a spare tyre so, yes that was my visual evidence

im rather unnerved by planning for my travel. but i would be more unnerved if i didn't plan. and now i find my travel plans endearing. my plans :) of course im not taking full ownership of the plans since serene lim has a stake in that too. im looking forward to meeting my 1st singaporean friend ever since i left  on the 6th of february 09. maybe i would even breakdown and wail like a baby. haha imagine that. i will bring her food when i pick her up in a different swiss state

one of the reasons why everyone needs a companion wherever one is:
it is more healthy to eat meals talking to, looking at, laughing with ppl than sitting in front of a pc screen/ tv/ blank space.
note to ppl who are also going overseas. tsk.

another note to self: keep in touch with yolanda, elisa and adriana. i would love these ppl to my fullest for all that is possibly attainable when our friendship is going to be oceans apart (...day after day.... haha do u get this?) in less than a month.
-but well except for some periods of time, i would justify that im either just a crankly old lady or just being neutral, passive, being in the element kinda state

ok.ciao. i have to wash, plan, pack, sleep.
4 more days till serene arrives. and 6 more days till the traveling to rome, venice, london (plans to go to stonehenge and bath too!) and barcelona begins!

are u all jiggly excitedly prepped up for me!??
do count me in your prayers. that we dont get lost for too many a times... that we will live well (ok we are practically living in shit, as adri called it. hotels? no. hostels? no. we are staying in camps with tents! yes. but with pools and beaches nearby. but 1 hour away from the city paying a 1/4 of whatever normal travellers pay for accomm though! cue SMIRK.)

haha okk. ciao.
u who is reading, is it really interesting for u to read me ramble?
i wonder if i would get the same satisfaction from rambling it out typing or just let my teeny tiny auntie/donald duck voice talk inside my head. but yikes. imagine if  have too many voices at the same time. luckily the voices are not in my own voice, otherwise i would be so goddamn irritated. they are just in english words. thank god. okk. period. stop.

www.tudou.com/playlist/id/3350607/

People u all have to watch this jap drama- so far out of all that i have watched -> this is THE best one.

i have provided u the linkkk. so there is no excuse for u not to watchhhh it!!!!!

i will certainly re-watch this. but that will be after hmm... 16 june (because of the exams ><)
and i will write u a review.
oh well even if there is no 'u all' who are interested i will still write it

      See? Lee (from Naruto) guarantees that U will not be disappointed!

My fave song for now :)

It has a lil' jap influence from the starting instrumental melody- referred to an old jap song. and i can imagine hearing that tune in some jap anime. old jap song with catchy, breathy, sexual innuendos lyrics- hmm. an interesting paradoxical relationship. like how the japanese are known to be to a high context culture but also secretly in the dark they have a lot of hentai doings

Utada Hikaru's English songs are a little different from her Japanese ones. The melody and the tune is more coherent, with a r&b swing when comparing with some of her Jap songs (like Stay Gold) to the english ones but the lyrics, mymymy! It is totally random- for e.g. "honeys, if you are gay. burn it up, like a gay parade."- from poppin' which is totally wacky and hilarious :)

I like both of her jap and eng songs, just that im trying to reconcile the differences. i think for her english songs she compromise on the substance of her lyrics, the more heavy, serious emotions (especially those that will make u whimsical about life/ love/ death) in her jap songs and capitalize more on the catchy, breathy, silly and light- merry-making lyrics and tune for her english songs

now im so glad i watch jap drama-> which is how i get to know her. and for rach too. cuz she listen to jap songs
btw rachhh. i love cosmoscope! it is an extremely pleasant surprise. i didnt know it is thhatttt gooood :) mymy. i probably survive better overseas with sugizo's cosmoscope in my mp3.

there is some pop songs similarities i hear from this album. as compared to rihanna, gwen stefani, lady gaga
- but yet as i have found out, lady gaga and utada are more experimental pop artists where they derive inspiration from madaonna, james brown, freddie, queen...
- try listening her new songs

me gusta!
horrei. i need to brush up on my jap!

Utada Hikaru Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence - FYI



this is 1 of th 2 strong vocals serious english song in her 3rd english album: this is the one :)

this one (crying like a child)


argh i need to studyyyyy

if my language gets rusty, im losing grip of a capability to express myself
and to express myself, my thoughts, feelings, aspirations, fears, pleasures, reflections
is what makes me me

how unimaginable is that horror
to be ripped of that basic fabric of my validation
so now im going to blog more often
to accentuate my very essence

to all humans but especially to people in the liberal arts and communication scene, i would think that the fundamental distinguishing factor between them is a person's interpretation and perspective
and how fast, critical and constructive it is

and so, i begin to sharpen my sword
i have much more to write but just that all these have been accumulating since eons after not updating my blog in switz
shall go to zzz. exams are coming, and i want to study and be prepared

ps/ where im is becoming so amazingly sunny and warm ever since winter has passed that i have started wondering why did i leave spore for this weather @%#$
and there is no fan nor air con here
talk about waking up in a hot, humid room and covered in sweat as the windows of my room are closed before we go to sleep die to the outside noise- night traffic and the early birds

argh. at least now it just rained so all is cooooooool, qoo!

Me &Ｉ



me:
and that is it.
stuck in the cyclical throes of mundane humanity

lament upon my motley provisions
tangy sour over unfortunate preconditions
contending with these inadequacies
giving up inspired idiosyncrasies
falling prey to gratifications
looted by false consciousness
then there goes the enacted tragedy
in a self orchestrated symphony

i:
so is that it?
antipathy doesn't warrant sympathetic generosity

without the pursuit, devoid of passion, deprived an individual
...insufferable
...intolerable
...self deprecatory
hence incur the wrath of this philosophy

raise your mantle
even though how subtle
dare as u may strive
strive as u may dare
to dare revolt against commodifying
all life's satisfying
pursue this route affectively
excluding the constraining technicality
on the contrary of numb complacency
... dawning opportunities
... multiplicity of possibilities
... gamut of emotions on a life roller coaster
i had offered u intriguing perplexity

only then
in the twilight
of your limelight
faced with your life
u shall take pride

and in this i shall continue to conquer
until me shall concur

and this shall be my lil legacy
to boost the supremacy
of me such an infinitely insignificant being
where all matters is my journey
in which i had identified personally

what im looking for in a lover
- someone who will make me feel like a natural woman

simple as that, or is it really so simple

and also
- i want him to be also one of my best friends

that's it.

***

it was my first time being cycled around and the driver is by mdr, a well-recognised hot spanish boy (who is also on exchange) who is self reinforced unavailable and staunchly faithful to his girlfriend (in spain).

- how evidence of his x factor is established: my roomie, adriana (italian), "from him, i just know that he must be very good in bed" mwaha. yes very typical of my european besties hurhur.
and yolanda exclaiming after she saw mdr raising his bike to climb over a fence made up of metal chains. 哇！你的男人（她知道我喜欢他）还真帅气。 *gloats, at least i have gd taste

- and mdr eccetricities can be highlighted from an excerpt of his convo to me. "my fave animal is the cows. because they are so independent, they are not like the sheeps..." Oo

* it was scary at first, seriously. cycling on the road and feeling out of control. but after trusting him, nevertheless not completely, i enjoyed the night breeze in my tresses :). we were stopped by the police and the policwoman screamed out, "i know it is very romantic, ut the girl behind has to get down", which i only understood after an italian to english translation. not that it became awkward, cuz we are frens who associate well with each other (cuz we could neither be categorized under acquainances nor good friends)

***

my italian roomie and bestie, adriana and spanish bestie, elisa can really crack me up on their openness and humour with regards to sex
- adriana is not deprived as she has a bf but eli is. and they were excitedly talking abt sex, orgasms and all the fancy, free (both aspects) u derive from sex wlll bring u to heaven-life sensory pleasure. and the most representative agent of this pleasure goes too...... boys from jamaica, the city of sex and big dicks, to the extent that eli, who started hallucinating from her thirst, big dicks orbiting around her.
- to give visual guidance of this amusing convo, there were screaming girls, hand punching, jerks of the body from sitting up talking on the bed to lying down and then springing up again.

***



我只在乎你- 成龙 (2002年专辑) 时空倒流和邓丽君（旧情人）合唱

teresa, 邓丽君的歌声真动人。毫无包装，自然，亲切又让人感到舒服。
the lyrics of the song flows into such a cohesive transition to the current context and relationship of the 2 singers
yolanda the perpetrator of the misconduct of my tear glands intro this song to me
and i translated this song to elisa in english, and she cried

- the lyrics are beautiful, and it sings of the very innate human desire to feel connected to another being, to be in a relationship
- and then the melodramatic star-struck lovers, and a missed could-be happy ending
至少，邓丽君死如泰山，不但只震动了现代的华人世界，她的影响力，传染力也会流传到接下来的世世代代。

12 may 2009 was supposed to be just another normal school day, till i heard from my chinese friend, (yolada- my neighbour from my hostel, 1 of my closest friends here) about the 1 year anniversary of the Si Chuan Earthquake

and it was this video that made me cry, distorting my face into some bashed-up tomato head (can u believe one of the ppl leaving ehre actually thought i smoked some drugs after he saw me)

on 12 May 2008

四川大地震
more than...
68, 000 dead.
18, 000 mssing
300, 000 injured
the earthquake could be felt all over china, while the epicente is in the si chuan, bei chuan provinces



this earthquake happened at 2plus pm. as it was still school time, the main group of victims is the children. children dying can only serve to shatter the heart. imagine the fear and shock they felt in the way-too-early commencement of their lives' twilight, where in such cases where adults can not be any stronger than mere whimpering kids. this is especially true in china where families only have a precious one. being the centrepiece of the family structure, which is now irrevocably looted from them, the family collasped, suicidal rates of mothers increase.

then it occured to me that on the exact day of the earthquake , i was in yellowstone national park, usa, fulfiling my work and travel usa progam. during that period, i was no more than a lil tingly concerned, and i only heard about the earthqake from my boss- who read the papers and my colleague who is from si chuan. and even after so, i was frankly lingering over the anpathetic edge.

do i have to rely on videos overflowing with images of suffering to stir my emotions? to invoke my capacity of being humane? after realising this difference in my attitude, i feel ashamed, terribly. or even guilty. disinterest is not an excuse on this issue. desensitization to such media of catastrophe, poverty, and all living hellish scenes on earth shouldn't be an excuse of me turning away, while undespicably  living in comfort and cast a blind eye to suffering. and this feeling intensifies when such a young life instead of mine is being traded to a period, full stop.

this is not the first time i have cried over catastrophes or human suffering. but this is the only time where i gained such an epiphany. i have relinquished the crying, wallowing over melodramas, over touching scenes in disasters, feeling the need to be sad, maybe from this strange self induced sadness, i can better face my present stagnant life, or perhaps to motivate myself to live better. i don't know. but least now the cardinal gain point i had from this reflection is to stop having self-gained motivations and exploiting such media bites of others' suffering in my interest, but instead, to never forget about people who are still currently suffering, i will not want to be hypocritical, to write this and revert back to relying on an external agent/medium to make me feel compassionate. all i want myself to do is to never forget about the unfortunate.